I worry…..

……..about babies.  I want to be healthy.  Healthy enough to carry one in me for 9 months and push him/her out of me.  I want to have 2 babies. I want to be healthy thereafter to enjoy the rest of my life as a mother, as a wife, a lover, an auntie, a sister, a cousin, a daughter in law, sister in law, a colleague and a friend.  I don’t want to worry about weight, about overgrown feet, about a distended stomach.  I want to be a ‘yummy mummy’.  I want my husband to still want me sexually, intellectually and on all levels imaginable.  I want my children to be happy, to be disciplined, to want to have me always as their mother, to have pride in having me in their lives even though they didn”t really have a choice as to who their mother would be.  I want it all.  Perfection.  So am working very hard at it.  I am at 40%, I think, and getting there.  I want to give 110%, and, for me, this is attainable.

………about my job, my career.  Where I want to be by the time am 40 - wealthy.  I work smart, I have a career that will ensure I get to achieve these two objectives in my life all at the same time. I have been blessed.  My family is where they have always wanted to be for the last 16 years, happy, well fed, under a solid roof, educated and clothed.  No one is complaining so far.  Therefore I have set in motion the wheels of change that will take me to two places.  Wealth - money and wealth in terms of my very own family.  I am debt free!  Yes! 5 years later, no more college loans, no more furniture loans, no more credit card debts, no more, no more debts! I have cut down on my expenses – drastically- and together with the money previously slashed off my salary to pay off debts, I have invested in 3 different baskets of great returns to mature in 2 years and renewable depending on the circumstances in my life at the time.  I have taken stock of my life and it is time to make serious plans for the future.

………about my relationship with my partner.  How to be a great girlfriend.  Spending time talking about us, talking about me, getting to know him better, him getting to know me better.  Having fun in the relationship.  Sorting out issues, letting go of past baggage.  Keeping things light, funny, hilarious, a smile on my face.  Being a great friend, a delightful friend. Creating a solid base where we can reach into in times of crisis, fights, arguments.  Two and a half years later, I still learn something new about my man everyday.  He is constantly changing, and so am I. Amazing isn’t it?  I want things to be like that for the rest of my life!

Ladies and gentlemen, brace yourselves,  I am now a grown up at the funky age of 29.